Week 9 Screening

I've made a decision about this screening for 'abnormalities' as the leaflet put it.

 The decision is no. I will not have this screening test, or any of the tests that might tell me my baby has one syndrome or another. I've wanted this baby for a long time, and it just doesn't matter anymore if it has one of these conditions. The fact is, I don't care what anyone tells me, and believe me a few opinions have been shared unasked for regarding the matter, I wont terminate this pregnancy no matter what.

I made my mind up about abortion when I was fifteen and Philosophy and Ethics class decided it was a good idea to teach under age pupils about abortion and the pros and cons of Christian opinion. I was sick in that class. The detail made me sick. The horrible plastic model of placenta and baby make me sick. The idea made me sick. I knew then I was against the procedure. It's against MY ethics.

So what would be the point in getting screened when I don't want anything to sway my moral compass into pointing another direction. This isn't just my child, this is a part of Adam that I would never be without, so I don't care if my bundle is born with a disability. I will cross that bridge when I come to it.

For now, when I touch my precious cargo, I hope they can sense my choice, and know it didn't matter to me enough to find out, I love them unconditionally even now and I will fight every step of the way for that love to endure through any outcome.