Morning Sickness

Everyone talks about pregnancy like it's a bright blooming gift for a woman. The glow of fertility, the sense of wellbeing and contentment, maybe all that's on the way. Right now, I feel like I'm ready to spew up my entire stomach and sleep for a hundred years afterwards.

I'm soooo tired! and when I'm sitting at work I can be absolutely fine one minute, and then suddenly a swoosh of sickness comes over me and I'm heaving, my head spinning. I'm so hungry but everything I look at is turning my stomach.

It started off between 8am-10am, now it's progressively worse throughout the day, on and off. Do I eat breakfast? Do I leave breakfast? Do I eat lunch now? Do I miss lunch? I feel so sick!

They don't mention the sickness much do they? Its passed over vaguely and they say ' it's different for everyone, you might be one of the lucky ones' - I am not one of the lucky ones. I am a wreck.

No one is saying I look glowing, no one is patting my shoulder with a warm smile and saying ' ooo doesn't it suit you well ' ...I'm getting: "Christ you look green, like actually green'' and... ''Are you tired? You look really tired''

I am tired
and Green is my new colour.

Let's hope it does wear off.